Nov10/2026 Eh Maybe

             Last Sep saw this big pickup in parking lot where I live. There is a bumper sticker on it. 4 in x a ft. It's a map of US. There is an ace of spades. It sits right over where I live. It's the death card. I noticed it. I figured it was meant for me. It was. Couple days after my birthday the dance with death began. So the ace of spades at leThesast for me, was a waking dream. An arrow pointing to the future. It took the edge off the coming shock.

         Little things that can easily be over looked. Could've pointed you into a different direction. These sticks you pickup when building a fire out in the woods. You want dried out ones. These sticks are clues that you gather up. Write them down in your journal. Look at said journal. People saying something to you,the tv or internet. You're seeing it for a reason. With me when the clue doubles up, pay attention. So dumb me was asleep on the job. And when you're asleep,things get get dicey for you.

           Now, I'm back to Splenda in my decaf. Trying to cut down on my sugar. The other week I tried an original Coke. Always liked them. This time it tasted off to me. Making adjustments. Is it uncomfortable getting better. Yes it is. But it's better than being dead. 

             So, I had 2 encounters with Moe from the Stooges. Since the surgery. Do I know what it means, not yet.

Nov08/2026 Still Recuperating

            It's not easy. But if you want to live you pick your poison. So me and pizza we were good together. But I believe the cheese eventually shut down my arteries. It came quickly, I knew something was up when I would carry my cooler bag and feel a slight pressure under my skin above the heart toward the esophagus. I knew it was the heart. No nerve pain at all, no pressure on chest. Stent doctor says too risky on second blockage. Has to be bypass. Had it done. Been 3 weeks. So beginning this Spring I talked about if something happens I wouldn't be posting anymore.  So, it almost came true. If so would've been smart I should of got checked on my heart. A stent would've been alot better. So maybe you should give up cheese too. You can help yourself by stepping on a treadmill once a month for 15 min. Then raise the deck a little so you're walking up a slight hill. Notice how your body responds. If you feel winded then tell your cardiologist. The only thing that works is a cath. Catch early and you only need a stent ..... wait then you're like me. You don't want to be me. In about 9 days I see the doc.

Oct 24, 2026. Back from the Dead

             Yep the widow maker almost got me. Felt like a little discomfort above my heart when walking. Went to the hospital for their tests, which I passed and said come back the next day. If there is same problem. There was.

 Well it happened the next day. Back in the hospital where they did a cath..failed big time. Another week and it would be game over. No fun for 2 weeks. They didn't' perform by pass there so took an ambulance to a center city hospital. So, best option is to go with the  by-pass. Didn't see it coming. I asked stent doc ok you're  me what you gonna do? She said do the by-pass. Better shot at living. When the blood comes down the  arrorta it hits a dead end before it moves up into it's journey. This is where the cholesterol hits turning into a hard calcified substance. The stent pushes against this hard surface. It could break the artery instead of pushing it to the side. Also, fissures could form on inner walls of artery. Which could break on out to other side. Get to the new hospital in the middle of the night. Female doc comes in.  I  have time do you want us to do it now. I said. no. Next morning a male doctor comes in. What do you want to do? I tell him to give me till 6:30am. He's back at 6:15. Need to know. I say ok then. His name is Mooney, same name of friend I have. He's a cool guy. So, that gave me hope with this doc. Then they shaved my hair off the body except the head. Then it was lights out. Big room. Females and males all wearing dark blue scrubs. Against a white interior. Everybody knows their job. All of them 100 per cent focused. I got up off of gurney on to a higher operating table, silver looking. Woke up to a big scar in chest and 2 picks in my neck. Plus wires all over. They kept me out of pain with their drugs. I slowly limited my pain drugs down. 5 days I was done with them. Slowly they wanted me to walk. First day I said no. Second day up for small walk. There were other female patients up and walking. I couldn't believe it. The nurses were great, all of them. I am thankful.

           I was being wheeled into new room. One small nurse was trying to jump up in up to unhook a metal hook from netting that was stopping the curtain. I said stop that. She was too small. I said get a step stool. One went to look for one while another looked for a tool. One nurse said I have a Brad. Entrance of Brad big guy 6,'4. He reached up and takes out the offending hook. Curtain can now close.

           Food was good. Got my taste buds back after 5 days. Their coffee was no good. I got my own delivered decaf instant by Folgers. It tasted a little better not much though. Since home it's been good. They gave me chicken marsala. I don't know why. Maybe it's fat free. I don't know. The staff were all top notch except one tech. She gave me a hard time in a chair placement in my room. I wanted it set up my way. No problem before with the others but with this one. My nurse took care of it. Thanks nurse. I left like 9 days later. Been recuperating since.

          Did I see it coming? Yes and no. Last Spring I wrote about some future event where I would have a lapse of blogging. So, I guess that was a heads up but not what I thought could happen.

Oct 9/2026. Hospital

            It's where I ended up. They did the stress test with nuclides and a imaging screen. So, I passed the test. They gave me 2 new drugs to take. They say if tightness happens again come back in and they will do the Cath thing. Just great. So it being the hot sauce, not likely. I stopped the hot sauce anyway. And Taco Bell. Damn . Also I cut way back on the chunk cheese. Will increase with the spinach in my diet. One of the ways I interact with DS is by saying place 2 things in front of me. One day a month ago I was in Walmart and at a self checkout. There were 2 cans of spinach, that someone left behind. I took them. Now, I will be eating a little everyday for the iron. So, I'll see what happens.

Oct 04//2026. In Life

            It is not easy. Some people choose hard lives for themselves. Why? Because they feel that they can get the most learning from it. We can modify that outline we made for ourselves while living this one. To modify your life it requires you to develop a relationship with God your creator. You do that by asking questions of him and charting the answers that come your way in your journal.

           My life is not perfect. I try to adjust my life by taking actions that would hopefully make it better. Over 3 years ago it was the dumbell exercises. I wanted the muscle tone without going to the gym and taking it easy. I try to workout 6 days a week. My exercises take about 15:min per day. I like the results. Then the diabetic thing. It took me a year to act on that. Plus car troubles. Got that resolved as well. Do I want these things fixed? Then I have to take actions.  Always remembering to use DS when needed. Yesterday, a guy was crossing a busy street in a wheel chair while I was stopped at a light. He had only one leg.  I give thanks for my sight and hearing. As well as the use of my legs. In Life no matter how bad things can become, remember that there are things to be greatful for. Can't stress that enough.

           If the problems are big. Break them down into smaller portions. Take a day or week to accomplish taking care of that smaller problem. When done, write it down. Then move on to the second step. You will get it done.

           There are many annoyances for me as of late. Big problems and many smaller ones. It's constantly dealing with them. But I do. You think in your head what you want and the desired outcome. When you do this you shape your reality and become stronger for it .  Alot of times we move too fast. This opens us up to accidents and a gripping action. Like gripping a steering wheel to tight. A metaphor for how we deal with circumstances in our life. It's hurried not relaxed but tense. In that state the results are less than stellar.

  Take pride in what you accomplished. It took hard effort to get there. And once there it will take vigilance on your part to keep on top of things. Don't let others take you down. You tell them you don't appreciate it. If they persist, then leave the room. Don't stand there and take it. It's like anything in life. You have to fight for it. Or it will go bye bye. You will have an advantage over others in than you will have DS behind you. But you have to recognize it. Many, many  others do not recognize it. When you go about your day, you take in air without a thought. Do the same when recognizing that DS is there for every aspect of your life. You and it will overcome what is out there for you.

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Oct 03/2026 Allergen?

            Yesterday, I was driving and I see a van in front of me. One of the words on it was luxe. When I order food at Taco Bell the heading U choose from is the luxe section to get the taco salad. For the past month I was getting the taco salad. Recently I've been adding the dollar chilli container as well. I'd dump that on top of the salad. Less than hour later I had that chest feeling again. I got to thinking. What ai have is not the heart or lung but an esophageal problem. When I was at the doctors' yesterday I asked her to check my lungs. She said it sounded good. So, I'm thinking I'm allergic to something in the chilli. And it's affecting my esophagus. I eat hot sauce and I can with no ill effect. My guess something in the chilli is causing a problem with the tube and not the stomach. No chilli for me from Taco Bell. I will see if that does it. Who put that van there. Yep, DS.

           

Oct 02/2026. A1C

            February 2025 I get pulled over for a bad plate. I couldn't get it passed through emissions. The one cop says to me do you have diabetes? I say what? I think he says it again, so I say no. I say why you asking that, he says never mind. March  2026. I go to my doctor and get a blood test.  A1C is 6.5. end of June it's 6.9. pre diabetic stage. Yesterday I went,  it's dropped to 6.0. fantastic.  I started my diet in June. Now plateaued at 219, from 242 lbs Still more to go. So, DS used the cop to get DS's point across to me. DS can use any way to drive home it's point. Now, last week, I noticed that have some trouble in the chest area. Not tightness or numbness. Mentioned it to the doc. Now,I have to go for a physical. DS brought up another issue but this time it's a body reaction instead of words or dreams.

            The car got new rear brakes the last 2 mos as well as a new water pump and timing belt. Hope it it's good to go for awhile.

           Diet: I am now doing one pop tart every third day. Still working on trying to trim portions. When it comes to other foods.

          Blood pressure dropped which is another good thing.