4/06/2025 In The Moment

        Dropped my toothbrush from a small plastic bag, that was on upper cabinet shelf. Landed on top of small trash liner of garbage pail. Didn't fall in though. I washed it in soap and hot water. Good as new. Why....because I was thinking of something else. No longer living in the now. And this is what happens. Living in the now takes a lot of focus. My guess,  since I started to try to live in the now has improved by 10 percent. I went up from a 10 to 20 percent. Haven't forgot my phone in 2 mos. There are many things to be mindful of. When we address the small things, it keeps from becoming bigger things later on. For example not being on top of the oil level in your car. Not being mindful may wind up... you looking for another car. Being careful and determined will make your life better. Each day make a mental outline of how you would like your day to unfold. Take notes once in awhile  while your out and about. You are trying to master your life.

 

3/30/2925 And So It Goes

        It's been half a decade since I started this blog. I can't believe it. I was going to do it for 1 year and now it's 5. In Dec 2019, I was watching tv and a video of a Chinese Hospital was being shown, inside a frazzled doctor was stepping over sick people in the hallway. Must of been 20 victims of the virus. I knew right then, that's a pandemic. Told my family members who all dismissed it as just the flu. I did not stop though and kept bringing it up. The end of Feb 2020, I was in another state and the virus crossed into the US. Scary times. I wrote this blog at the end of March as a help to anyone who had an interest. Initially I tried writing a book. Got several chapters done, but I gave up on it. Couple years later I found out about blogs. This was more up my alley. I like doing it. Prior to 2019, I noticed Asian people wearing masks at the airport. I thought it was strange. .This covid thing was air borne. So masking up was the most commonsense way to combat the spread. Pretending it was not a problem was a fools predicament. The resulting data as of today is over a million Americans dead because of it.  I was back in my hometown a year later and was in the hospital for a family member. I talked to a nurse in her 50s. She said they lost every single covid victim in March 2020. Couldn't get my mind around that fact. Now top scientists are being dismissed from their jobs. Not good to say the least.

       Now more than ever it is important to acknowledge that connection we have to DS   (Divine Spirit). It can help us in our decision  making process. It can see us through very tough times. Rely on it and not fear induced proclamations. Anyone can access this spiritual help, which has real life solutions to what troubles us.

       The best and easiest thing you can do is to be kind in word and deed to everyone,  everyday.  It works. I interact with at least 50 people per day. I always end the conversation with a positive saying. It comes back to me from other people throughout the week. If everyone did this the world would be a more happy place.

        5 years down and another 5 years to go. Keep on trying to improve your life and never give up. Make your adjustments and always look for ways to stay positive. You will be a beacon in your own life as well as others.

3/25/2025 Manna

        From heaven. It was the stuff that fell from the skies and enabled the Israelite to eat while in the desert. In this case it was food. But it can be anything.  To me manna is the connection between you and God. Which I call divine spirit(DS). This connection is your life line, to help regarding your daily life. It takes on many forms. 

       Two weeks ago as I approached a deli, I see Ben Franklin staring up at me in the sunlight. Looks real. Pick it up, paper. Back of bill says  prop money. Oh well.  But once 10 years ago, it was a real a 100 dollar bill I plucked from some store floor. It was needed then. Thank-you DS. Doesn't always happen this way.

       Since January, I've been having car troubles. The tittle I'm trying to put in my name. But at one time she turned it over to a relative who didn't  go forward with the title exchange. Now the title has to be redone. So I have to pay twice for 2 titles. Go in wait in line, then they say, oh she has to be here to do it. I say give me form and I will get her to sign it. No they say. Couldn't bring her because she's  been sick. Call the state about it. There is a way to do it, get an affidavit. Then notarize it. The notary I try is around the block, my bank, so I get it done. So now to get a title and registration, I have to show a safety emission test that the car has to pass. So I go to junk yards and get 2 lights for the car back and front. Now has to pass emission test. It flunks. The code reads purge valve. But the mechanic won't give me a price, station A. I find another station that gives me a price of 230 dollars, Al's. I have him do it. Done in less than a hour. No engine light is on. The next day the light comes back on. Then get 2 tickets no registration and no insurance. Went to court 240 dollars due by June 6th. The car operates fine until 2 weeks ago. It started to cut out. Like 3 times a day it would shut down. Wait 10 min then it would start up. Run good. Next day no shut downs. Pulled a little hose that connects to the air intake manifold, seemed to do the trick but day after started acting up again. A couple times I asked for help from DS and then the car would start on cue. This last time it required 10 minutes. Call on DS again. I see a car with a magnet sign on door Al's  Service. The place I took it for purge valve was called Joes Auto service. But for some reason I call it Al's. So the first station that looked at the car and failed it for safety & emissions, I went to after car started. They can't look at it,  I have to bring it back in 10 days. Then I go to Al's, really Joes. His guys look at it right away. Take the top plastic shroud off the engine and pull the coils. 2 of them soaked in oil. The car is a Hyundai 4 cylinder. The other two are ok. So Joe goes inside to work up estimate. The mechanic says he should be done soon. I say he's probably looking for a bigger calculator. The mechanic had big laugh at that. But I was right 800 bucks. Ouch!  Don't  have the money, so off to Auto-Zone. 160 bucks for parts. I'll get it online for 100 bucks. Also needs a   valve cover gasket. The oil gasket failure led to two soaked coils and 2 spark plugs. So I will be doing it myself.

       So the car that drove by with Al's service was a waking dream for me on what to do next. Not service station A but use service station B ( Al's). It was right.  Got it diagnosed for no money. Where previously at a Hyundai dealership they wanted 200 dollars just for a diagnosis. Due to check engine light. So DS steps in after I ask and points me in the right direction. Thankyou  DS.

3/11/2025 What an A...H....

        I'm on the highway, traveling 55. A guy ( car A ) is ahead of me  600ft and clover leaf is up to the right. A car is accelerating down the ramp trying to get ahead of car A. No yield to this guy. He's  ahead of car A, just barely. Then he starts to fishtail it on dry pavement. The back end is to left then right. This is fast motion. I say this guy is going to roll it. Never seen that before. He gets control of it. What an A...h... I say to myself. Then I say uh oh, I did it again. This is also a lesson for me when traveling  the roadways. Be really careful with my driving and the driving of others.  

       Not long after that, a young gal gets aggressive after completing a left hand turn. She's right on my butt. I quickly pull the car to the side of the road. I give her the road. I keep an eye on the rear view mirror looking for the aggressive driver. Life can be hard  but some people are out to make life even harder for themselves. So for me, it means be especially careful on the roads. These are warnings.

       More on living in the moment. I did it again, got to store and as I walk to the door I feel my back pocket, no wallet. Before,  it was always the phone.  Fixed that problem and now it shifted to the wallet. I did a little better, usually I got my goodies on the checkout belt, then reach for my wallet and find it missing. It's still a work in progress. 

       I try to keep a loose outline on how I want my day to go. Today for the first time in awhile I got most of my to do list done.  It's a good feeling. I give thanks.

3/05/2025 Boston 1770

       The Boston massacre  happened on this date 255years ago.  There was bad blood between the colonists and the redcoats. The redcoats were professionals the Bostinians not so much. On this day the colonists were taunting the redcoats and throwing rocks, sticks and snowballs at them. Captain Preston lost control of his men and they fired into the crowd with their muskets. Maybe he ordered it maybe not. There is a picture of the massacre & it shows the redcoats in line abreast. Once their in this formation, it is the start to a potential fight. They usually wait for any future orders. That order is to fire. So it was one volley and 5 men fell. Crispus Attucks was the first to fall in the crowd of 400. He was a black/ indigenous man. This event was used by the sons of liberty to drum up anti British sentiments in the Boston community. The British pulled their troops out of Boston until 1774. So the embers burned for the next 5 years. Culminating at Breeds Hill June 17th 1775.

       Kent state, May 4th 1970. Ill led national guard troops gunned down 4 kids, who were taunting and throwing rocks at them. They responded with live ammo. A military force shooting into a crowd of fellow Americans.  It was a turning point in the future end of the Vietnam War. These flash points usher in some sort of change in the direction of futurefate. What will become of us?

       The first flash point led to the  creation of this country. The 2nd a morality change.

3/6/2025 The Tire Episode

        It was the end of the day and I was driving back from work. On the highway I was driving 60 mph. No problems. The next day I get in the car and drive 15 ft, something ain't right. Get out... yep ....flat tire. It was bad, bald and steel fibers sticking out. But I remember I just put air in this tire 2 weeks ago and the tire looked alright. It still had tread. Now hardly any. Get the jack out and put the doughnut on. The town 20 min south of me I recall had a  couple used tire stores. First store  had a tire but it was a little narrower and a little higher. 60 bucks. I passed. 2nd shop nearby had the tire but it was new 100 bucks. The whole time in my head I'm thinking 40 bucks. Look at my phone and I find a place back in my own neighborhood. They have the tire, how much..... 50 bucks. Not 40 but close enough. He had it on in 10 minutes. Plus the guy said I needed brakes, 80 bucks for the front. I supply the pads. Good price maybe next month. Divine Spirit I credit for not having a blow out on the highway yesterday. Also the day the flat happened was a nice day. I didn't  get wet sitting on the ground. The next day it rained hard, another blessing. It is good to count your blessings. Being grateful invites more good things for the future. Now negative things do pop up, so be resourceful in your approach to them. Right now I'm dealing with a lot of negative experiences that are going on now. Previously, I thought the car was out of alignment due to hitting too many potholes. The car shook. After replacing the tire, no more shake. Those loose steel belts in tire had an adverse affect on my ride.

3/2/202 A Close Shave

        Last week,  I watched a guy cheat death at the RR crossing. Today I had a close shave in a parking lot. I pulled in front of this guy.  He brakes and I swerved left. No damage. So the RR incident was a wake-up call for  me and the driver who went around the gate. A dual purpose incident. The RR guy and me both had close shaves, mine happening a week later. You can  witness it or someone tells you something out of character. Write it down & reflect on it. In some way it pertains to you. So I see it for more than it appears. These instances are like an arrow pointing at you. You need to pay more attention in this area of your life. As an aside it's better to park facing out of a parking space. Close calls are there for a purpose, to drive home a point.  It's pay attention time. Be grateful for when these events happen. You are becoming an active participant in your reality. I got a warning watching that RR guy. I said what an idiot. I should have reflected on my own driving habits and not about his. So I missed this warning. And I became the idiot.

2/23/2025 Choo Choo

        I crest this small hill while driving, this week. As I'm coming down, I see the car ahead driving around the train crossing gates. The locomotive's horn was ablare. The car made it across 30 secs before the freight train. So stupid. If the car had a problem, well no more driver & car. Just the day before on reddit saw a big box truck get obliterated doing the same thing. I never seen it personally  happen before. This driver put their life on the line for the sake of 7 or 8 minutes. This train was a mile long in the blink of an eye, it can be over. So critical thinking and listening  within can save your future existence. When the trains coming down the track, it's a metaphor for any big thing coming at you say your health. You get warnings. Things are always changing. Think, then use your intuition, your god connection and finally taking action. It's  our choice to see that train a-comin. Or throw caution to the wind & proceed at our own peril. When these trains come,  always go within first before your next move. I find this way is best, in how the future plays out. If I use my will, its never as good as the divine will. A lot of times you have to wait til the time is right to make your move. And that wait time can be real hard to go through as I'm finding out.

2/21/2025 I Can Fix It

        More on living in the now. Snow is on the ground as I go to drop plastic bottles in recycling bin. I have small bags of trash as well. So I drop the 7 bottles into the trash can by mistake. They drop to bottom of 5 ft bin. Me not living in the moment. The recycle bin is at the curb, trash bin is next to the house. I went to curb to put the other bag of recyclables into the bin. Walking up the driveway, I spot a 3/4" 2 ft stick in the snow.  At the end of stick is a  2 in 45 degree  angle stub. Perfect. Reach into trash bin and I put the stub into the capless bottle, lifting them right out. Of course the last bottle has a cap on it. That one took a little longer, I had to squish it with stick against wall of bin and slowly bring it up against the bin. I got the job done.

       So,  by not being mindful, it cost me time. But spirit had a solution. I had to use my brain to recognize it. The tool to fix what I perceived to be a problem. This is minor. But it can come in handy when dealing with larger issues. Say on the road when driving. Not being mindful can cost you in time missed due to injury or court costs.. learn the small lessons. I fail alot with this mindfulness. But I see improvements, like not having to drive back home because I forgot something. Also, getting creative in fixing a problem I created.

2/12/2025. The. Wheel

        In a couple days it will be Valentines Day. A day that celebrates why we are put on this planet. To send out loving thoughts and actions. We all have egos that rise up to ascertain our command of our environment. A lot of times our egos get in the way of making things better.  Better to think before we speak and act. Put that pause button on. If we're hot and bothered. ..best to say nothing or leave the room.  I'm not saying it's going to be easy.  Once you incorporate it into your life, your life will be a little more free sailing.  We will have setbacks along the way, I can attest to that.  If the other person is having a bad day, give them space. Say like on the road. Someone cuts you off. You get mad and flip the bird and yell. Not necessary. In your past you have trangressed as well. Be kind & considerate always, keep that ego in check. The kindness you put out will be felt by others. By saying something to a checkout person at a store may influence their behavior to their kid. Kindness begets kindness down the road. This spreads love outward. Like ripples from a stone when it hits the water.   

        So I went out this morning to the store. Coming back the light changed to red. When it does that I take the first exit before the light. When the light changes both sides have to stop. Usually I make the turn. But today I hesitated on that left turn and sure enough the driver drives through the red light. Maybe blinded by the sun. But when stuff like this happens I always thank Divine Spirit. The hesitation might just have come from it (DS). I wished that person safe travels. So 15 min later I was backing out my driveway and I wait for a car to pass, roll my back tires at the curb area into the street and see a blue car which I didn't notice before,  the mailbox blocked my view. But it was my fault, taking my time saved me. 2 times in a half hour. Whooh!

       Taking a chance. A guy on Wheel of Fortune recently wound up on the show do his son's influence. The son has dyslexia. So the family watched the wheel so as to help the son with his deslexia. The son said you should go on the show. He said he would if you help me. He did get on the show and won over 55,000 dollars. So taking on a chance proved very rewarding in many different ways. In life when an opportunity arises, take the time to think about it and maybe go for it. Bigger decisions will require more fore thought. Trying new things can open yourself up to more rewarding experiences.

2/8/2025 It Can Get Tricky

       I've been trying to get this car registered for awhile now. When I get money up, something comes around and takes it. In the mean time I was getting quotes on car insurance on the net. The come on was 20 or 40 dollars per month. Nope, what I got was 160 down and 137 per month. My answer was no.  This was going on for weeks, since my car got repossessed. It was relief when this happened because I couldn't afford the 350 per month payment.  2 weeks ago I get a call from State Farm it was Jordan and not Jake. He said 88.50 per month and no down-payment. I said good but I have to wait for my pay card to come. Two weeks later, I finally got my card and tried to find Jordan's number. Can't find it. I couldn't believe it. So Meghan from State Farm a different office had been calling me but I didn't get back to her. She calls as I'm  looking for Jordan's  number.  She says 72.30 per month. Saved more than 15 dollars over Jordan's estimate. I took it. So took over a month but these dead ends were necessary to get this rate. Any estimate that said I had to pay a down-payment,  I rejected it. I  knew not to pay over 100 dollars per month. Most insurance companies were around 130 per month. So persevere and stick to your guns. I did get 2 tickets for no insurance and no registration. Hopefully I can take care of this soon. When in a hard spot keep on keeping on and tell yourself I will get it done. Many more issues have been coming up as well.

1/31/2025 Boil Water

         Got this from Reddit. You can't  see your reflection in a pot of boiling water. When you take it off the fire and it cools down, you once again can see your reflection. In a state of anger, alot of damage can occur either physical or emotional.  This loss of control can wreck your life for the next hour and up to years into the future. Make your decisions when your at peace with yourself and your environs. Anger is pure destruction. Also there is no such thing as righteous anger. I got angry once and I felt it as being suffocated. It was not pleasant. I pulled over exited the vehicle and took 3 big breaths. It helped alot. I was back to being me. Things go our way and sometimes they don't.  It's up to us to figure out why things didn't go our way. There is a reason why monkey wrenches are put in our path. Alot of times It's because we're not ready yet or we still have stuff to learn, where were at. This happened to me. One thing I learned in life, is never give up. And try to give love to all situations that pop in your life. Also use your spiritual tool bag on a constant basis. If put in a diffucult postion hand the problem over to Divine Spirit. Say to it, here you have at it. Spirit will then fix it so that everyone has a chance to be moved  forward for the betterment of all. Then try to see what spirit did in fixing the situation. Each person will be given a chance to reflect on what transpired. Some will do it and others not. To grow is in the doing.

1/29/2025. Always a Delay

        Since the move, I've been under some financial pressure. I took a delivery job, last year. So I asked Spirit the other day for a at first 5 dollar cash tip to which in 5 secs I bumped it to 10 dollars. Well that day I got a 4 dollar cash tip. Plus 2 tickets for no insurance or registration. Registration you have to pass a safety & emission test. Not cheap for an old car. So the next day I wound up getting 27 dollars in tips but it goes on a card that I didn't get yet. So there was a 24 hr delay between the ask and the delivery. Plus it was 27 and not 10 dollars. Other small good things happened as well in aiding me. Plus the 2 negative things. My point is I could see Divine Spirit blazing the way for me. Also I was getting quotes online for car insurance. These quotes were like 160 down and 136 a month. They were all in the same ballfield. The c'mon was 30 or 19 dollars a month. None of them ever came down to this level. So Thursday I was going to return phone calls on this problem. I finish breakfast and was getting ready to make the calls. Then State Farm calls. Pick up the phone it was Johnathan not Jake. I get my insurance no down payment 88.50 a month. I take it. Done in 10 minutes. Saved me 3 hrs on the phone. Another gift. Thank-you. Behind every dark cloud there is a silver lining, in my case it's gold. To manifest things stick alot of emotion behind your words and say it outloud. Do it when by yourself. It works. Believe it so. No doubt allowed. Here is a form of it. I Never win anything. Or naaah It won't work out for me. When you want something say it outloud at least 3 times. And don't negate it with your next breath. We forget this sometimes and then have to relearn it. I am guilty of this at times. No matter what, keep moving forward.

1/19/2025 Attitude

        We come here as creators. To create our life for the good or the bad. Many lessons are woven throughout our creation. Trial and error helps us in picking events , things and people into our life. When doing this, we should always listen to our mind and heart. Alot of times when acting from ego we pay a price. Ask yourself, was the price worth it. Keeping a journal keeps the magnifier on you. Hopefully you will shape your life into something more rewarding. You become more greatful, confident and giving. These are traits that you take with you when you die. You are fulfilling your role in God's plan. It's extremely important. After all it is the reason why you came here. Life is ups & downs. Changing your attitude during a down time can help you better get through it. It's a slight adjustment to your way of thinking about a situation. When you have a real bad situation, go to your journal. Discuss it fully in writing and make an outline in how to get through it. Write about your attitude and how you can shift it to make things better. Is ego ruling the day? How have my actions led to a better resolvement. Try adjusting a particular attitude that your holding onto. When in the mist of a vexing problem call on divine spirit for it's aid. Alot of times that comes as a small assist. Something will break for you at the right time. When you want to work with divine spirit just ask. When you see the correlation between the ask and the result you will know for yourself that divine spirit is a force from God, acting for your benefit. When you know this you're life will change for the better. Now some problems are big. You chip at them breaking it down into smaller pieces. Maybe this problem can get a little better. Always have hope. No defeatist attitudes. Someone wrote I lost all hope. I wrote back.  Never give up on hope, Ever. No hope is depression. And that pit can only get deeper. Hope will lift you out of that pit as well as God's grace. So bad times are there for us to become stronger. With that strength we are in a position to help ourselves in future predicaments and maybe to help others as well. I find any negative attitude that I hold comes to bite me good. Shifting that attitude can spare me that bite. When your actions come back on you pretty quickly, you will know that you are definitely on a spiritual path. No matter where you are on this path, life can be better with a  slight correction in your attitude.

1/06/2025 The Who, The What & The Where

     Doesn't really matter. What matters is you and your relationship to God.  There is that at the top of your list. Everything else comes after that. Is there a time of reckoning coming ?  My answer is yes and it is coming soon. It is something I feel. The date I do not know, nor the how. It's about being put to the test. This test is important when it comes to our future. It will be a dividing line. Those who commune with Divine Spirit will know where that line exists and where to step. The amount of time you spend with Divine Spirit does not have a bearing on how long you been doing it. You will know that line. If you stand up for what is right, you help yourself as well as others. If your actions are selfish you will reap those consequences. Hence, you shall reap what you sow. Very simple premise. Many an ego crack their head on this premise.

       So I always say Be kind in word and deed to everyone,   everyday. Start with yourself first. It paves the way that day in a positive way. Negative things can still happen though. Ask yourself what is here for me to learn. Always be greatfull and look for ways to fix your situation. These last 8mos have been challenging for me. Fires pop up all the time. I look for ways to put then out. It gets tiring though. You tell yourself, you will persevere no matter what. And this is what I do. Eventually this phase will end I'm hoping. During this hard time your resourcefulness will come to bear on how well you cope. You will find if you don't give up that you do and can adapt to what life throws at you. You are becoming stronger. Each person will have to do this forthemselves. It will be their well earned victory.

       Always ask for help from Divine Spirit. Be greatfull. 10 min of contemplation. Think how you would like your day to go. And keep a journal. Reread your journal it will show how your thoughts are leading to a more rewarding future.