8/10/2026. The Diet

           Started 6 weeks ago. Cut my portion sizes  down. After 6 weeks went from 242 doctor's scale, to now 230. Me 5ft 10. Went to 229 but I stopped at a Pretzel Stop fast food joint. No prices on food at the drive through. Pictures of food though. The surprise comes when they ring you up. 11 bucks. I'm used to paying around 4 bucks at a fast food joint. I usually go to a Taco Bell. In US they pulled the Taylor Farm lettuce from Mexico. Due to salmonella. So, I had a reg size pretzel dog and a bag of pretzel bites no salt. It was a good size bag. I thought the bag would be way smaller. I had a couple bites and the dog. Next day I saw,  I went from 229 to 230. Yep , that one  day was a reverse diet. You do this 12 days in a row and I'm back up to 242.  Not happening.

          Last week I cut out the 1 pop tart. But I still plateaued at 230 all week. Last night for dinner I had a handful of cherries and a handful of grapes and 4 tablespoons of cottage cheese with a heaping teaspoon of grape jelly mixed up. Never did this for dinner. I got an analog scale from Wallmart (10 bucks) last week. Stepped on scale this morning  228. Yeah. More cottage cheese for me. I eat 3 times a day. For a snack I'll do a 1 yogurt or banana. 

         My goal weight is 199. Because I haven't hit that number since I was  23. Long time ago. By cutting my portions a little more 6 weeks ago, I find that it is reducing my stomach. It has gotten used to the smaller amount.  I don't get hunger pains. I'm motivated by the declining numbers on the scale.

8/9/2026 What You Say & Think

           Of others, is a reflection on you. For real growth in your life, you start here. Correcting behaviors is what we're about. It is very hard work. We don't like to look at ourselves. Well, on the spiritual path, this is what you do. And I'll tell you something, it is Not pleasant. What you see in others or say to others is a self own. In some way you are addressing something that is lacking in you. Am I guilty. You betcha. This can be very subtle.  It goes under the radar. You can work on this by looking at the last fight you had with someone. Look for that which you accused someone of, for that trait that is within you. And it most certainly is.

          I told this story before. A woman and me at kitchen table. She was telling me how her fiance  was nice but he was a cheapskate.  I said so are you.  She was shocked. She said she donates all the time.  I said it is not tit for tat. You are stingy with your love that you show  him.  She said nothing. I could see she was processing that statement. Whether it worked for her relationship, I have no idea. To make it stick you have to write it down and read it everyday. Then incorporate it into your life.  It's work,   but you're showing the higher power that you are making strides.  And he does watch you. He knows you inside and out. The spiritual path is what you're suppose to be on. It helps you most of all and others as well. You put out love and kindness, and guess what you get that back 10 fold, if you look for it. Then when you recognize it you give thanks. 

                This blog is the most important of all of them, that I have written.

7/30/2026. Stupid Is...as Stupid Does

           My car  I got off my wife a year and a half ago. Her grandson was using it. It had damage on trunk and front bumper and hood. I fixed the head lamp and rear tail light as well as the exhaust pipe brackets. I fixed other things under the hood as parts failed. The car had 200,000 mi on it. I decided to keep it because the motor and transmission were ok I believed. The engine light was always on. Took it to Advance Auto. It was the purge valve. I thought that was in the motor. This is where I made a big mistake. I should've looked it up on my phone first. Didn't do that. Went to the service station and he put one in for 250 dollars. The light went out but came back on the next day. Take it back, this time he said it's the gas cap. Can't use an after market gas cap. So I go to Hyundai and get the last cap they have for 25 dollars. The light still stays on. Go back to the service station, they didn't have an answer. I was going to have to leave it. But my life sped up and I had to put it on hold. Plus I didn't trust them as much. Couldn't get it registered in my name because it had to pass emissions first. So I drove it with a bad plate. Got caught tree times. One ticket. The other cops let me slide. Each cop snuck up on me. After that I kept an eye out constantly and didn't get stopped.

          Every once in awhile, I would try to talk to service stations about my problem. It would be 200 dollars just  for a diagnosis. No way I was paying that. So  I would say to them, what if I put 1000 dollars into it and it still failed. They say well it would cost even more money. So none of the service stations would give me a price. In my mind I was not going to give up til I had my plate. And I was not going to put a lot of money into it as well. I looked into getting it inspected in a county that didn't have the emission requirement. Spent a couple months fiddling around with that. Couldn't make it work. Back to square one. I had more time to try and find a better mechanic. Finally found a guy. I let him inspect it. He says it's the purge valve. And the alternator is putting out too much voltage. Fails on those two things. He fixed the engine light by swapping out the led bulb with another bulb that was working another light function that I didn't need. Back to the alternator, I had my first mechanic put in a new alternator 10 months ago. There is a warranty. I found out what auto parts store he used. I call them up. They don't have the part. Two days to have it transfered from another store. Give him my mechanic's name.  Make the appointment with the mechanic. On way there I stop and buy oil for car at Dollar General. 5.59 per quart, cheaper than the auto parts store. Like 3.00. per quart. Go to auto parts store for filter. At a Jiffy lube It would be 80 dollars.. ten years ago for my pickup it was $25.00 to have someone change the oil. So I get to the mechanics, he's an hr and a half late. Have him change the oil as well as swap out the alternator. Hour later he's done. Cost me $125. The alternator is free but I had to repay the labor cost. So I got the oil changed in that cost. So I had a new purge valve and a new alternator put in and they both failed. Unbelievable!

           Now I'm good with the alternator, he shows me on meter I'm under 15 volts. Wish I knew this earlier. But now you know to make sure to see for yourself that your under 15 volts with your new alternator. I look in the phone about the purge valve. My new mechanic would charge a little over a hundred. I see in the Internet where that valve is, not in the motor but behind it. I look at discount auto parts on the web.  I get one shipped out for 29 dollars. OEM part is what you want. I checked at Advance Auto, they wanted 75 dollars. I use online part sellers as well as the auto part stores. Like for the alternator it is going to be an auto parts store. I put the purge valve in myself and it takes 30 minutes. That first service guy charged me 250f dollars. Got ripped off and it didn't work anyways.

          Back to my new mechanic for the ,2 tests on the car. I saw yesterday that the check engine light was on again. I told the mechanic. He went out to check on car and said light was out. Great I say. Half hour later the car passes. Man I was so happy. I high fived the mechanic. Finally got my plates. A week later that damn check engine light comes on again and has stayed on. Doesn't matter now though. So I was thinking that DS had a hand in getting me through the emission test. The more I think on it the more I believe it. My plates are good for 2 years before it has to get inspected again. Thank-you DS. This was a struggle. I just focused on getting this done and not having to pay a whole lot of money for. Same no matter what is going on in your life. FOCUS on your desired outcome and take action. I was going to get it done no matter how long it was going to take. Now, my car has 208,000 miles on it. Here's a tip as your car gets older get oil changed every 3,000 mi.

7/27/2026 Update

          I waited a week to resume with the dumbbell. This time I do 20 lifts with each arm, 25 pounder. Then I do  lift over head to a count of 30 each arm. That's one rep. Then do again for the second rep. So far so good. For you you do the weight that is comfortable to you even if it's a 2 pounder wt. So a couple months ago I was thinking to going to 30 pounder in October. Now that is put off. I still do dips into an open doorway for my back by holding on to the door frame and leaning into the open door way.

           Yesterday marked one month since I started my diet. I don't have a scale yet. Will get one soon. So I lost my love handles. Happy about that. My guess I lost close to 20 lbs. I will soon give an update on what I eat to make this diet work. So, I've been on diets in the past. Eventually they fail. But it is I that failed. These failures make you stronger. You are not the same as you were. You're a wee bit smarter. Those little smarts are like ladder rungs up to get where you want to be. Eventually, one day you will rely on these little footholds to get you over the top. It comes down to, how bad do you really want it. It's like with everything else. How bad do you want a new car or how bad do you want God. It's time for me to get over the top this time. And I'm going to get er done. Up until 23 I could eat anything drink beer and not gain weight. Those were great times because I was a foody. Well around 23 things started to change. It started to stick. Not so good. But I continued with my ways. My first diet started because I walked by a mirror in my house and saw how fat I was. I wasn't wearing a shirt. I saw it out of the corner of my eye. I walked back holy cow I'm a cow. Went to the bathroom got on the scale. 260 holy molly. Diet started that night. Next day down to 258.  After months I got down to 240. Then I stayed between 240 & 250 lbs plateaued here a couple decades. Once I got down to 220 but eventually 240 again. It's been many years that I was in the 190s. This year though for sure.

          Finally got the car registered after 18 mos. That will be another blog.

          The last place I was going to move to fell through, so still dealing with this issue as well.

          I am greatful for everything too. Always be greatful. It's good to look back on what we have to be greatful for.

7/23)2026. Nick. Bostick

            Four years ago Nick was driving nighttime in Lafayette IN, after a fight with his girlfriend. He usually delivers pizza. He was driving to clear his head after the fight. 

             Now,  that fight was for a reason. A negative event set the stage for Nick. He's coming down the road and is passing what appears to be a campfire in the front yard of a house. He backs up to get a better looksie. That's not a campfire. The house is on fire. He parks and runs into the house. In the first floor An 18 yr old girl is bringing the girls downstairs. He ushers them out to the yard. The 18 yr old says there is still one more. Back up to the second floor he goes. Pulling closet doors and looking under beds. Nothing, he runs back to the first floor. He puts shirt in front of his face, the smoke is thick. He uses his hands to feel around . Nothing, he's moving faster as the fire ramps it up. Poking and poking and hits pay dirt. The  6 year old girl he grabs but front door is blocked with fire and smoke . He remembers the window when he first went up. He tried to break it, his arm bounces off it. Second time he breaks it. As he is trying to get the girl out her foot and leg gets caught up in the blind cord. Has to set her down to fix it. He grabs her and holds her tight to his left side jumps out and lands on his left side. This is his last remembrance  The cops tell him that he brought the kid to the street and handed her off.  She only had a minor wound. Then he collapsed on the curb. They treated him for hand and arm injuries and burns and smoke inhalation. When he was upstairs at first he thought he just might not survive this one.

          This happened around this time 4 years ago. He recuperated. Once he got out of the hospital. And he also got the Carnegie Medal of Honor. Excellent actions Nick,! Kudos, a genuine hero. 

           So, it starts off as a negative event with his fight with his gal. He's stewing and driving. And he his right where DS wants him to be. Nick does the rest.  When Nick is downstairs talking to the 18 yr old about the missing child. He could of asked God where she is. Say something like is she on the first or second floor. The first answer in your head you go with. This probably would of saved him the real bad Injuries. He did good though. No one knows God's plan but we can get a heads up to a part of that plan. It can and does bleed through. With dreams and the waking dream we can privy ourselves into knowing a wee bit, what that plan is. In my opinion it is better with the heads up. Try to stay calm when chaos is about. It is through the calm that DS will reveal to you what the best course of action is. It is harder for DS to come through when the mind is jumbled up. Like looking into a shallow pond with calm waters. You can clearly see the bottom. Drop a 5 pound rock in there and you can't see the bottom anymore. Keep clarity of mind and you will see clearly. Do this in all aspects of your life.

           The father who was not home at the time was talking to a reporter and said the family lost everything except each other. And,  then he said one real good thing though, was we gained another member of the family.

7/21/2026 Exercise Injury

           About 2 days ago I felt a little dime size  ache in the right shoulder. Where the arm intersects the shoulder. In an hour I forgot about it. Now 2 days later in the afternoon, the ache is stronger. I didn't do anything, like lift anything. So I screwed up. Not thinking that dime size ache could get worse. Now,  I will lay off the exercise for a week. So don't do what I did. Which is ignore it. I think it was the 55 pushups I do on the bathroom sink. Should have stuck to 25 pushups instead. So you have to make adjustments with your exercises. 

          I adjusted to 25 lifts with the dumbbell instead of 50 lifts for 1 rep. This I find works better. In 1 sitting I do 25lifts of 25 lb dumbbell on one arm. Then I lift that weight over my head and hold it the for 50 count. Same for the other arm. I do that exercise twice in under 15 minutes.  So take a week off if you feel that dime size ache in your workouts.

7)18/2026 Life on Hold

          Basically it's been on hold for almost 7 months because of one thing after the other. As all this started, I saw the waking dream sign... Chill ,...in big letters on a truck. Well that's what I've been doing. Not that successful as of now. So I've been thinking on this. Time to take the chill off.  Today I'm scrolling the phone and there is an ad in the phone. But first this morning I see a picture on the phone of a cardinal lifting off a branch and the photo catches the bird with wings out stretched. Excellent photo. This registers to me as a soon to be jumping off point for me. Eh maybe. Later in morning in the phone, I see the ad.

            Purple box with words. The calm of everything going to plan.  Another waking dream?  Perhaps.  So my guess here is...relax it's my ( creator ) plan. So he's reminding me to be patient. But I have to admit my patience is wearing real thin.

7/15/2026. Dr Ahmed

           He's an emergency doctor in ithe United Kingdom doing his nightly rounds. He sees a nuse struggling with a bed sheet. The patient has 12 hrs left to live. He holds her hand and he hears her say thank-you,  But in a weak voice. He squeezes her hand and is about to step out of the room. Nope. She grabs his hand with strength. This takes him aback. She says  I have visitors here and they say you're good un. He says oh your family. She says not my family. The visitors that are now in this room are the ones that said it. He's getting creeped out now.  Then he feels the nurse step in the room behind him. He turns to greet her but no one is in the room but him and the patient. The room is dark. Finally he bolts. 

           If I'm in his shoes, I'm going to be asking the visitors some questions. People who are about to move on can become like their 30s again. Total strength & clarity. For a brief period of time, anyway.

7/14/2026 Weight Gain

           Last couple years I was lax with the eating.  So I bloomed up to 242 pounds on a 5' 10 frame ( Xtra large shirt) usually. Now a 1 X shirt would be better. This Sunday will be 3 weeks on the diet. I was on my last notch in the belt. And the belt comes under the belly. So the belt doesn't go over the belly button.  Not good, not good at all. Hence, the diet.

           Around 28 I was in a 7/11 getting lunch. I don't remember the circumstances but I was talking to a stranger and we got to talking about weight gain. He said that when he loosened  his belt one notch he would go on a no white diet. No sugar, bread,salt ice cream or milk. Once his weight came down he'd eat what he wanted I said Wow.  Did I follow his advice. Stupid me did not. Do I regret it yes. But I was a foody, then and now. I could eat whatever I wanted, up until I was 23,  then it started to stick. Back in my late 49s I walked by the hall mirror one day and I say, who is that?  Jumped on scale 260 the heaviest of all time. I've stayed around 240 for decades. Gave it more years  and got down to 215. But I eventually went back to 240. Got to drop 42 pounds to get to 200. I'm starting to get there. 

          I start with breakfast. I swap out 2 things. One day it will be cereal and the next 1 jumbo egg and one cooked piece of bacon. I also take 3 small mini potatoes from a bag from Wallmart. I slice them and put them in pan with bacon strip. Then pepper, hot sauce and ketchup. And One cup of instant de- cafe sleeve with a little bit of real sugar and half & half.

          Lunch.... 2 mini croissants toasted not the ones that say butter found at Wallmart. In that I put a little grape jelly then cream cheese on top of that. When out and about I go to Taco Bell and get the chicken stacker for 2.99. plus I use 7-8 hot sauce packets. Sometimes I buy discount yogurts and use them as snacks.

         Dinner......I fry up turkey or chicken in a tube. Half a palm of meat. Brown them up and add it to instant mash potato or macaroni. With a little bit of cheese from the included packets..  I add stone ground mustard from Wallmart and hot sauce. Also I shake some basil into it. For macaroni I add a little  bit of olive oil or grape oil. It's good. I will add raw carrots and radishes.  Also frozen cauliflower. I will have a salad 3 times a week. And boiled corn for 10 min. One ear. A little salt and a little butter.

          Desert...,....1 Vortman fudge choc chip cookie sugar free. And a pudding cup sugar free. Sometimes I swap a sugar free ice cream sandwich instead of a pudding cup. You have to take them out of the box and stick them in the freezer. After 2 mons of that I think I won't be getting them even though they're sugar free. They don't taste that great.

        I don't have a scale. But my belt is now on the 4th notch in. From 1 to 4 in less than 3 weeks. I see the stomach shrinking. This is where I store it. When I get to 200 I will try for 195. Then stay there. I will need alot of diligence this time around. I will get it done!

7/13/2026. Cobra

           It's a name of a military helicopter. 2 guys are in it, Jim the gunner and his pilot. Place Vietnam. The VC have shot it and it's on it's way down. The blade tears itself up on the ground. Jim thinks his leg is broken plus the fire has burnt his face up. Next thing he remembers being totally messed up spatially. Then he's out of his body, he's about 100 ft up in the air looking down. He sees the destroyed helicopter and VC working their way toward them.  They are a mile away.To his left he notices a hooded man. He tells him you are not dead yet. The pilot was running from the gun ship and looked back and saw his gunner move. He ran back to him saying you didn't move you looked dead. He tells his pilot from his position up in air which direction to run to. There was a small allied base off to the northwest. The pilot didn't know that.  US soldiers return to the craft and get Jim.

          He lived. So, when you're out of your body you rise above and have your faculties intact. I have done this a couple times. Some people call this the astral body. It connects to you via a silver 'cord'.  This allowed those 2 men to have less trauma as their life progressed. Jim saw that there was more to life than he understood it to be. By being in a difficult position you too  can say to DS, I'd like to see the problem from above or the 360 position. This is available to everyone. Always ask questions of DS. Push the envelope.

7/12/2026 Beep

          I drive up next to sidewalk to pickup my wife from store. The parking lot is to my left. I see this woman backing up but there is a car backing up as well that is further into the lane.  I beep my horn as a warning. It did no good, she it's him. She was only doing 5mph. I was shocked as the suv she hit rocked to the right so hard. After the hit they both retreated back into their parking spaces. So, if you hear a horn, stop what your doing and look around. No matter where you think that beep came from. So this was Saturday. It didn't appear to be too much damage. But I saw how the suv high center of gravity worked to it's disadvantage. If that vehicle gets hit harder then it is going over it's side. It's more of a busy time at the stores, on the weekend. Parking near the store doors, is what people like to do. It's a more dangerous area to be at. Maybe park a little further away. The walk can benefit you. This is why I like to park with my nose facing into the lane. I try to do this most times. After seeing the accident, I will be doing it even more. Learning from others can be a benefit to you.

          The other night I had a dream I'm on a fast  mid sized motorcycle. Getting to a turn to the right . The tires start to lose grip, start heading for the grass. I tilt my body down low and avoid the crash righting the bike back up as bike comes to a near stop. A voice behind me says  good job. I enter 2nd and 3rd turn more cautiously.  During the day I'm parked at a Wallmart, I walk back to my car later and there is a motorcycle parked close by me a ,750 version.  Seeing the bike re,-reinforced the dream. Now, that's Important. Maybe it means that my life is about to be sped up. Oh and by the way I don't drive motorcycles.

7/11/2026. Grabbing a Door

           The other day, I'm getting into my  car. My focus is on something else. I reach behind me grabbing the door to close it. I grab it from the top. No good. The door closes on my hand as I try to let it go. The car is on a  slight tilt due to the parking lot. It catches my knuckle and not real hard. So, I still feel it today, it's not broken. But it is a lesson on focus.  Trying to stay in the  present is not easy!  By not doing it leads to potentially big problems. 

          Last week, I'm driving in the fast lane. In the center of road is the turning lane. Eventually I'll be entering that lane. Doing about 30mph. The guy in slow lane jerks his car into my lane. I know I can't get over too much to the left due to an Suv being there in the turning lane.  Had to miss guy on my left and the idiot in front of me on right. Missed both, by literally inches to spare. No time for horn. The guy no signal no looking just do what he wants. If my focus was not there, accident. Things can change in a split second. I am greatful that I didn't have to have that experience.

         I see people going over 80 in the fast lane all the time. Think people, is getting there 5 or 10 minutes quicker really worth putting others and yourself in danger. One accident will mess you up in time spent in getting car fixed or worse. It is good to think ahead. I see car carriers carting a loads of damaged vehicles all the time. Doing Door Dash, I've seen bad accidents about 6 in a years time. If  I see an aggressiv driver tailgating me, I pull over onto the shoulder and let him fly on by. I slow my vehicle before a stop light making sure guy in back is slowing down as well. Stay Focused. It will give you a better life.

7,/9/2026 Dumbell Work

           I adjusted my dumbell routine. Now, I do minimum 25 lifts in sitting position for each hand. The left hand I do 28. My right is dominant . My left arm is stronger than right since I was doing about 20 more lifts than the right. Now I want to do 100 lifts for each arm, with each rep being 25 lifts. I also do pushups against a sink counter that is three and a half ft high. 1 rep is 50. My feet aret 21/2 ft from the sink. Make sure your sink is sturdy. Or use the kitchen counter. While sitting in the chair I lift my 25 pond dumbell over my head and keep it there to count of 50. You can do way less weight right here. I do it for each arm. Each set is a 50 count. I will do 2 sets eventually.

           Never exercise through pain or discomfort. Your body will warn you.  Stick with the low weights. As you get stronger you can raise the wt 4 lbs more. Then stay with that for 6 mos. After 3 years I have toned my  arms which was my goal.  I took it slow and steady. At least once a year do a blood test so you know what's going on as well.

7/4/2026. The Fourth

            250 years ago,  56 men affixed their signatures to a piece of vellum proclaiming our independence. What these guys did was sign their death warrants.  Many of them had families. They risked everything to the cause and I mean everything. Britain was the number 1 world power at that time. So this mob of upstarts of unruly men with no army was going to take it to the British. These 56 put their necks on the line in that belief of freedom. I think the events 1 year earlier on Breeds Hill gave them that degree of hopefulness. If Breeds Hill turned into a fiasco there would have been no signing on this day 250 years ago. That's  why I write about Breeds Hill every year in June.

           Freedom is not free. You have to fight for it. It might not be convenient  to you. But it may come down to what your values are.  It's good to look at them every once in awhile. Remember what occured on this day. These guys put it on the line. They walked the talk.

             Ben Franklin lost his son. He tried to talk him over to the rebel side but it did not work. His son moved to England. Benjamin visited his son one time in 1785. To discuss business matters. He wanted his son to apologize for not coming over to the rebel cause. He refused. That was the last time they saw each other. In his will, Benjamin did not leave anything to his son in England. His was one of many heartbreaks that affected the signers the Declaration. Hard times led to hard choices. Which they had to live with til they died. It's always about the choices.

              Five generations back and where back before the revolution.  That is not so long ago. So me and my father take the time line back almost a hundred years. That's almost halfway there to 1776. This generation, I call the takes guts generation. To have freedom was so important to that generation as it was for future generations to come. It is very precious. Let us protect it in this generation as well.  The money we handle everyday tells us to trust in God. It's there as a constant reminder. It's what we should be focused on when making our choices on a daily basis.

            May God  Bless  America

            So we can make 500 years

6/27/26. Something is Afoot

             Lunch time I go to Taco Bell for lunch. They have something called a chicken stacker for 2.99. best value right here. Eat these with the hot sauce packets. So my wife and I step into the store. She had to use the bathroom then I made my order on the kiosk.  I finish & turn around to face the counter area. This customer there is yelling at the staff. Something didn't go right at the drive through. So the guy came in. The employee had a nervous smile and the guy yelled at him about the smile. Saying why are you smiling like that. My wife says let's get out of here. I say no. The guy goes into a fit mode. Then near end of the tirade he pulls food out of his bag and then slams it on the counter. He didn't cross the line in the sand. Came close though. I asked God to intervene, at first yell. The customers in the store just let it slide. We let it slide until we can't. I kept an eye on him up until he drove away. So it wasn't Taco Bell, it was something deeper going on with him.  What can you do in this situation. You can in your mind wish the person peace. Or ask God to intervene then see what happens. And sometimes you may have to take physical action. This would be a last resort of course. Then after that a thunderstorm hit the area pretty good. Explosive behavior in the store and then 10 min later outside the store with the storm.

            Yesterday, I step out of my car to enter the grocery store. As I step outside, I feel money is about to come my way. I look around and sure enough there is a nickel in the ground, I pick it up. 6 ft from there another nickel. Ten cents to the good. What's it mean,? I have no idea. Before that a maintenance guy came to work on the a/c unit. He has a big Benjamin Franklin tattoo on his arm. I ask him about it. He says he's a big money man. I say it's the c-note. He said ...yes.  Says he gets paid good working for this company. They ship him out to differing parts of the country.  So big money conversation and 2 hrs later I find Jefferson twice. It's weird. I think it means something though. Twenty,- six months ago I got in my mind something big was going to happen. So far nothing.

.          I've noticed an uptick in earthquakes and volcanos popping off. Seems to be something is afoot. More of this to occur in the near future, perhaps. Upsetment in the people as well as the Earth.

6/25/2026. Rate My Progress

            Protect the Temple. It's where you live. So, I mentioned before about someone I know that was emotionally unhinged. This person wished to die saying it out loud with strong emotional outburst. Their health went down hill shortly after that. Now, this person battles to stay healthy. Not working so good. No matter how bad things get in your life, never give up , that is number 1. When upset, never wish ill to others or yourself. It is a downward spiral which you don't need.  Words are the bullets and the gunpowder are your emotions. Solve your dilemmas with God's help via Divine Spirit (DS,). A much safer way to go. It seems everybody forgets God when things are going good but then the coin flips, then what? By working with DS you will see for yourself that DS is for real. Nobody can prove it to you. It takes your actions,  so you can see the benefits to your life. Eventually you will rely on DS when things get tougher  for you. It will show you the way. Don't get discouraged when the answer is not forth coming fast enough. Keep at it no matter what. And always be greatful when you get the help. This God force called love has been on this planet since inception, it does not leave. You have access to it. The only thing you have to do is recognize it as Real and use it by calling upon it.

            When you start your day think on what you want to accomplish this day. If you have questions of DS do your best in looking for those answers while out and about. Also in your dreams at night. If you have a decision to make, sit with it a while and try to feel the answer. I find that when a decision is good, in your mind there is a resounding yes. You don't have to think twice. Take that direction. Hesitation comes in when you are looking to see how the dominos are going to fall. You can make a waking dream symbol. One object for answer one and another object for number two. Have that symbol show up twice at differing times. Then take that answer and see how it feels to you.

6/17/1775. Salem Poor at Breed's Hill

          Shortly  after Breed's Hill, George Washington was elevated to lead colonial forces against the British. Without him I don't think the states would have survived the war. George's troops were trapped on Long Island, NY.  Aug 1776, the British had him trapped good. George had his men build big bon fires along the ridge, and told them to whoop it up. Their backs were to Manhatten. Backing away from a fight saved the Continental Army from total destruction. George had his men hunt for boats along the coast of Brooklyn. Then they started ferrying his men to Manhatten. Genius. They lived to fight another day. Come daybreak there we're still troops in Brooklyn. A fog rolled in helping out George get the rest of the men over. I believe this fog was provided by DS ( Divine Spirit). So they picked the right guy for the Job.

           One of the things I disagree with George was him saying after the battle of Breeds Hill that negroes would no longer be recruited into the militias and regular army. Negroes that were already in could stay in their units.

            Salem Poor was a negro who fought atop Breed's Hill. He bought his freedom in 1769. In today's dollars would be 5,500 dollars years salary back then. Through a system if self- purchase, slaves with skills would be able to earn the money. 

            The beginning hours of June 17th, he and others started to dig into the  earth atop Breed's Hill at around 5 am the British saw the earthen work atop the hill. They then began to fire their cannon from their ships in the harbor toward the redoubt. Started out with 1400 colonists on the hill with reinforcements padding that number to 2,400. The Brits had 2,500 men. After 2 assaults by the regulars up the hill, the hill was red from British blood. One thousand casualties littered the tall grass. The 3 rd assault the colonials ran out of ammo. Became hand to hand fighting. Poor fired at British Lieutenant Colonel James Abercrombie. He was carried off the field to a Boston house where he succumbed to his injuries 6 days later. While recuperating at the house his men paid him a visit. Turned out that the wound in his right thigh came from friendly fire. That wound did him in 6 days later. 14 officers praised Poor's actions stop the hill. Recommended him for honors. There is no record of him receiving any honors though. Britain did the opposite and said any negroes who would fight for Britain would be freed permanently, once they signed in. They had many takers.

              Poor moved with his second wife to Providence RI. Eventually they were asked to leave because they had no money. Thanks for your service, now, get out.

             Lafayette laid the cornerstone for the Breed Hill monument in 1825. The 50 th year of the battle. It sits atop the hill to this day. Poor's honor was a 10 cent stamp issued for him in 1975. The British won the battle but lost the war. This battle set the tone throughout the war. They became super cautious and still maintained the arrogance in the officer corp.

6/13/2026 The Finch & The Hawk

           I saw a finch up in the sky going after a hawk. Hawk is leisurely flapping his wings but the finch was by himself and single purposed. Hawk was like who cares. The finch had his own ideas. He wanted that hawk out of his territory period. We should be like that finch, brave and single purposed. Know what we want and get after it.

           Last 5 mos  I've been looking for a cheaper place to live. A lot of dead ends. Working on 2 things the car problem and an abode. Yesterday, I finally got the alternator fixed after 21)2 weeks. Trying to get car past emissions for last 18 mos.  I brought my mechanic a junkyard alternator last November. That day he said a part on it was broke,  I told him to get a new one then. So, the car worked. Lost out on 50 bucks for the used alternator. Could've got my money back from junk yard but didn't have the time plus it was far away. So I ate the cost. Eventually tried to get the car through emissions once again. I take it to service stations and say how much to get a sticker. They won't give me a price. I say to them if I give you 500 bucks and it doesn't work then what. Well we have to look more. I say yeah and more money. This is why it is taking this long. In my old state I had about 20 vehicles and usually had them registered in one day. Not this state. I fixed the physical things on my car myself. That passed. The previous person who had the car before me got in an accident on the highway. The front end and backend got damaged but still driveable. So this accident was to my benefit. It is my belief that DS set this up. I took off the front plate because it had a bad sticker. The nearby state has no front plate. Got stopped 3 times one time getting a ticket. One day the bungee cord broke that kept the trunk lid down. I replaced it with a wider rubber strap. I positioned it over the bad sticker. This has worked.

           Found another mechanic. I like this guy. Failed on a purge valve and alternator which I had replaced 8 mos ago with a new one. This alternator was putting out over 15 volts, suppose to be under 15. Had to take it back to my mechanic to replace it. The part is warranted. But had to pay 80 dollars for the labor even though I already paid for the labor before. But second time the labor was less, he cut me a break.  So total loss was 130 for junk yard alternator and second labor on alternator install. So get a new alternator when you have to have it done and have them show you on a meter that it is putting out less than 15 volts before you leave the shop. The purge valve I'm going to do myself. Had that done 2 years ago for 260 dollars. My new mechanic says it's not good. Gonna do it myself for under 20 bucks. It's good to try to do it yourself. I talked to many mechanics before I found my new guy. I have hope in that I'll finally get it across the finish line. Then try to find that abode. This is something new in trying to get things done for me. There is a reason and I haven't figured it out yet.

6/09/2026. Slow it Down

           So the other day. I see my phone slip off my tray table, I couldn't grab it . It hits the floor again. It's one of those composite plastic floors, which helps. Phone ok once again. Two years ago I dropped my older phone on the macadam when exiting my car. It fell less than 2 ft. Landed on it's corner and got cracks in it. It lasted another 2 years. I should've of got a new one at that time. I was attached to that note 9 phone. Should of cut my losses then. So my new phone I set it down on the table but the end was propped up by a med size scissor, so the phone wasn't sitting flat.  Fifteen minutes later I watch it slip off the scissors and table. If I slowed it down,  it would've gave me time to think it through. Living through the experience will hopefully make us smarter. 

          Now, that incident can be extrapolated out. On the roadway, move a little slower, it can help avoid difficulties for you. Driving the other day, I'm in right lane making a right in right turn only lane. A car to my left tried to come in my lane, were side by side, he beeps at me. We missed by inches as I jerk car to right. Now he is behind me when we have to merge into the highway. A solid line is there for a bit. You merge when the line becomes a dashed line. He crosses the solid line and then beeps me again. He does some weird lane changes before pulling in front of me. I let off the gas.  I tell my wife look at that jerk but I don't let it get the better of me. Mr hurry up is stopped up ahead by a red light. I pass him making a right at the light. A future accident is in his future. Crossings, look 3 times before entering. I look for the speeders, hesitation is almost always preferable. I will wait at yield zone until the time is right. I stop 20 ft from car ahead of me at light, when I see guy stop at rear then I move up a little. . In parking lot, I try to park so my nose is facing out. I probably do this 50 percent of the time. When walking you have to look around as well. Once I was in a diner with my wife. I got a weird feeling,  so I took her out quick and found another place to eat. I new my spider sense was right on. That sense hit hard. Listen and get out. 

          Slow it down in other areas as well. When in an arguement, watch your mouth. Think before talking, count to twenty five. Words &  actions in this state are not good all around. Better to use your feet and leave. Try to be positive during your day. This builds a good protective space around you.  It will be better than before but it is not full proof. Patience is hard, it has to be cultivated, through practice. You will be reminded through the many months to come.

5/28/2026. Doomsday Prepping

              The preppers spent 137 million dollars in fixing up old shelters so as to survive a nuclear blast. Next year it will be 175 million dollars. The place is in South Dakota. It is a complex, where they are making them more modern, so as to sell them  to the preppers. One third of the complex is sold.  This complex holds up to a thousand people. Each abode cost 55,000 plus yearly service fees.  According to the Wall Street Journal. Now, the people that are living there are fighting amongst themselves over the little things like dogs.

               This reminds me of a Twilight Zone episode. The one neighbor builds a fallout shelter in his backyard around 1963. A false warning comes that missiles are coming from Russia over the north pole. They think it is real. The neighbors that socialized with one another turned violent trying to get into his shelter where his wife and kids are there. As the neighbors break in,  finally the radio says this is a false alarm. The neighbors try to make amends. Yeah right. So you have the fictional version and the real version. Pretty pathetic.

               Soul is indestructible. Once you know this 💯, you will be in a good place.. you will always go on. Learn from your lessons. Review your notebooks. Ask questions  of God and then look for the answers.