5/18/2020 Nightmare to end all Nightmares

    Since I was a kid, I had a fascination with Ufos(unidentified flying objects). Are they real? I followed the Apolo program. I made sure to stay awake until Neil Armstrong set foot on the moon. My family members were watching but eventually they packed it in, not me. I told myself no matter what happens, do not fall asleep. And I didn't. It was early morning I or 2 am, it was so worth it. When I was a kid, we'd play hey moon make a face and it did, we could see a human face looking back at us. Now the tables were turned, a human face was looking down at it from 6 ft away.

    I soon bought a book on flying saucers. It was about Roswell and peoples encounters with these phenomena. Every once n awhile I'd pick up another book on the subject. I believe there was a crash of some disk shape craft at that time. The sightings of these crafts picked up after the Hiroshima bomb drop. One day I'm watching tv and a reporter is showing around 10 or more round like orbs in the air near Mexico City, in broad daylight. Bright blue sky. The craft would move at odd angles and speeds. The camera would show city skylines then pan on up to the aerial display. There was no mention on American national news. Even Jimmy Carter the ex prez says he saw a ufo. Barney Hill and his wife, I think they were from Vermont had an encounter with the unknown. They were in their car, then a bright light and then they experienced missing time. Barney had a mysterious collered mark near his ear. They both were regressed using a form of hypnosis. They both related their experience on a ship of some sort. Then I saw a movie on tv, Fire in the Sky about Arizona loggers and their encounter with a ufo. One of them was taken up into the craft. Totaly terrifying. Fisherman have seen craft dive into the Caribbean sea and others have seen craft enter the caldera of volcanoes. Either they come from other planetary systems or they're from here or both. Some reports talked of crop circles and cattle mutalitons and men in black, just weird stuff. Then the hybrid stories, alien/ human offspring. What? I followed these stories. One gal recalled talking to one of these aliens and saying what gives you the right to create this new form of life? The alien said, we have every right in the world. I took this to mean, that they themselves are the creators.

    I had a friend who was more into it than me. He showed me pictures that he had took of ufos, I saw it, didn't know what to make of them. One day said friend was at a pool party at my house. I'm in the pool, he says come over here and look up. Circling are about 6 birds 100 ft up, it's about a 10 ft circle. Looking through the circle I see a rotating silver garbage can like craft. It's about 2,000 or more ft up in a blue sky. I knew it was rotating because it would glint every 5 secs when the sunlight would bounce off. It stayed there over 40 mins. Everybody at party saw it. No it wasn't a helicopter. Another friend of mine tells me his encounter. He lived about 2 miles from me. He wakes up about 3am,  a wierd light is shining in his room. He looks out his window and the moon is there and something else too. One huge disk saucer, 10 ft off the ground, maybe 100 ft in diameter. He goes to his mother's room. Mom,  wake up I have to show you something and keep quiet. He slowly cracks open the mini blinds, his mother starts to scream, he quickly covers her mouth. Shh he says they can hear you. His step dad comes in, the wife says to quick get a camera. Son and mom watch it move slow motion over yard and it rises to 50ft. Then just as father appears with camera, it explodes out of view. My friend who was in his early forties told me this. A couple yrs later, I met his mother at her house. say to her, did you see a ufo, she said she did swear to God. She was a Catholic woman, extremely nice and intelligent. She knew she wouldn't tell anyone unless she was asked.

    Which brings me to the nightmare. Two in the morning I awake with a start. WTF! What a dream I just had. I was on this ufo, can't move and they're doing some medical experiment on me. Get me the hell out of here! No help whatsoever! That's it! God! God! God! Help Help Help Me. Words come into my head... How Do You Know There Is A GOD. I pondered on that for 5 secs. If If there's a God, get me out of there. And he did. From that day forward, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt there is.     God

5/16/2020 Creeps for All

    They're out there for a reason. Bad upbringing maybe one reason, karma an other reason. I was about 4 yrs old, playing at a park swing set, having a good all time. Until a bigger kid pushed me down the slide ladder bars. Big creep. Wow I said to myself, thats something new. I'll be more cautious in the future. I didn't get hurt. Once school started, I did ok. The big kids were mouthing off to us as we stood in lines for each grade, in the morning. No violence, didn't see it. I'm about 9 or 10 now, there was a bigger kid down the block maybe 15 yrs old, he'd always be pi cking on me. One day I had enough and picked up a stone size of a quarter, I chased after him. During the chase I let the stone fly, figures I hit him in mouth and broke off a corner of a big tooth. We went to my garage where I was going to give him one of my tonka trucks, he'd point to one and I'd say not that one pick another. He pointed to another, I would say the same thing. I couldn't t work out a deal.  My dad worked out the deal with his parents my actions cost my dad money. Lucky me I didn't lose the love of my father. Next went to jr high, it was gym class. Some type of game outdoors, one group of boys on one side of the field was to run pass the other group of boys coming from the other side of the field. I see my friend get hit by another boy's upper arm. My friend got hurt. I saw something different that bad kid did it deliberately and I saw that face, pure anger, chilling. I would use the word evil. Sometimes I see it in people and stay away.  There was a kid down the street I would have words with. I challenged him to a fight on a neighbor's yard, turned into a wrestling match, I lost, across the street my father was watching. I'm glad he didn't interfere. Smart man. It was the best thing that could have happened to me. It stopped me from getting a big head. In high school, I challenged a boy who was a year ahead of me to a boxing match in gym class. We were dancing around, I threw a right, he dodged to the left and my right got his right ear good. He quick followed with a right to my stomache, fight over. Took me 2 mins to get my breath back. The gym teacher was great telling me what I could have done better as he unlaced my gloves. I quit too easy. Could have learned alot from gym teacher. Nope pugilism was not for me. It became a spectator sport for me.

    I was at a bar, talking to the guy next to me. I said something wrong to him, he got mad, wanted to fight me outside. I just talked to him in a low soothing monotone voice and after ten mins, he was asleep. Good job.

    I was working at a blue collar job, a foundry. We got back from lunch at a nearby bar. Mack was to be my helper, big strong guy. I broke the metal from the molds and he would stack the ingots, which were heavy. I was handing them off to my rear to him. Within mins I caught in his forehead blood everywhere, my fault. He came at me super mad, OH O H. But he managed to control himself. Mack wouldn't talk to me for2 weeks. The unofficial leader of the blue collars was Mirro, a big Puerto Rican. Going into work, we'd line up at the gate. I would snatch his hat and he had this faux upset mad going on. It was so funny. I would always flip the hat back to him. My most important job was to make the coffee, step aside Joe Dimaggio, I'm the king around here. Coffee is serious business, do not make any mistakes. I made it great and on time and arranged the donuts. I came in late one morning to the break room, Mirro says hey (my name),  Mack, he mad at you, he no talk to you. Everyone is sitting drinking coffee, no one says a word. I'm standing, I look over to Mack, he's got a mad look on. I say to Mirro, Mack doesn't hold any grudes, then I turn to Mack, do you Mack? Mack's face changed and a beautiful smile engulfed his face. No I don'!. We shook hands and resumed our friendship. That was a great experience that I treasure to this day, Something real bad became fantastic in 2 weeks. Spirit was there for sure. Thanks spirit.

    Last story. I was at my house doing some organizing and across the street I hear blaring music. After 30 mins, I go over there and say can you turn it down, I was mad. They did turn it down a little. Next week I'm driving in a rural area and theres a 4 way stop ahead. I step on brake, doesn't stop, slide through intersection. lucky for me, no other cars around. I use the emergency brake to get it to a mechanic. Puts it on lift, there's the problem, near the differential someone flattened each rear brake line. Those creeps across the street, paid me a visit, they did. I wondered why spirit didn't tip me off. But at the intersection spirit made sure, no other car was around. Bottom line, I went over across street mad. When your mad nothing good comes from it. That's what spirit allowed me to see.

5/16/2020 Pearls

    Of wisdom that is. They come on occasion through one's life. When heeded, they can do you alot of good. They can come anytime, anywhere or from anyone. Be on the lookout, stay awares. And when you find one, act on it!

    A guy I worked for, told me over a game of chess, the way to protect yourself was to put 10% of every dollar earned into savings. That is the motto. Did I listen, of course not! Big Dummy!  All I had to do was act. A failure to launch (there was a movie by that name). It messed up my life good in the ensuing years. No self evaluation on my part. I recommend everybody do self evaluation every Sunday or pick a day for at least 20 mins. To address issues that aren't working for you, if you don't, they will stay with you. Look in a mirror before the 20 mins and say 3 times I will be sucessfull in the exercise I'm about to do. Write down any insights you may get keep in a dedicated book, labelled Me and how to fix me. This is your number one tool to use on yourself.

    I was at some type of party, a long time ago. There was a gal there who did hand reading. She takes my hand looks at it for 2 secs and says long life and by the way, your'e not doing what your suppose to be doing. Of course she was dead on. I stayed asleep, figuratively. Another wasted pearl.

    One night I had a dream, very vivid. My grandmother and aunt G where there, they both passed on. Aunt G says to me, get the word out, we are all soul. I started to act on this pearl. From that dream on till this day.

    I was working at this lady's house doing a small job. Eventually, another guy came by and was lugging heavy landscape ties to the back yard, he was doing another project. Late in the day he's back again, working on second project. He said this a moonlight project. He comes here after work to do more work. I say why, what are you nuts busting your butt like that! He says my wife has expensive tastes. I say oh, I don't want one of those! I listened here.
One day, I was talking to a contractor, he told me if you want to make money don't pick up the hammer. If you do it will always be paycheck to paycheck. He was so right about that. Yep, didn't listen and I got what I got.

    I put my foot on a spiritual path. One bright sunny day in a picturesque town, I was waiting in line for a movie. The woman ahead of me turns around and says to me, your on the right path. I said nothing. I knew what she meant. Oh, she was a stranger to me. Got the pearI.

    So, if I had it to do over again, I would definitely have done the weekly self evaluation. Would have had a smoother road. Eh... that's life, start where you're at no matter what age you are. You stumble, pick yourself up, learn from your mistakes and proceed onward. Why?     Why to know yourself of course, the real you warts and all. When you know you, the doors will be flung open wide. It's a journey worth having.

5/15/2020. The Fortune Teller

    It was in a Maine cabin, that I had my first fortune telling, it came from my father. This was only time he ever did this. It was just done to pass the time. Playing cards instead of tarot cards. It starts with me mixing the cards, the two of diamonds is me laid on the table, then a ring of cards around the two of diamonds,  followed by an outer ring. The inner ring of cards showed the death card (ace of spades) the outer ring had a love interest and money. I lifted off my bench and leaned on table with my elbows, crack, part of the table gives way, some of the cards hit the floor. We gather up the cards and start over. The cards lay down almost exactly as before except the death card is in the outer ring now. The outer ring are events to occur 10 or more years in the future. Looking back decades in time, those cards told the truth.

    Once, I worked for this elderly Jewish woman, who owned a dog. She told me that she had the gift of prophesy. She was invited to a relatives wedding in DC. She went and at the reception, she got a vision that the newlyweds would shortly have a terrible accident. That bit of news went down like a lead balloon. The newlyweds cancelled thier flight and went by car. Yep they had a terrible accident but both recovered. The fortune teller was shunned by the family forever. Sometimes it's best to keep your mouth shut. Several months later, I see her walking her dog. I'm talking to her and notice the dog. I kneel down to dog and tell her the collar is way to tight. She said oh you're so right. She looks at me and says you're going to be really really rich. I said great! Then she says it's going to take a real long time. Oh ... just great. Not rich yet.

    I'm on the boardwalk, beautiful day, blue sky. A young Indian(country) gal maybe 2I, I'm around 33. She says 5 bucks for a quick read, hand over the 5 bucks. For one, you don't trust no one. I said you're dead on. You're going to meet a woman shortly with 4 kids and be involved. I said yeah right. She said I got way more for you, for 2O bucks, you're interresting!  Didn't take her up on it. Wish I did, looking back. Probably would have been the best twenty bucks I ever dropped. Several years later, the gal she prophesied about is in my life, shes got 3 kids. About 2 mos into the relationship, I tell her about the fortune teller, how she got it wrong about the 4 kids. She looks at me and says it is 4. WHAT!!! The fourth is in a home. O M G!!! That Indian girl was for real. Should have forked over that 20 bucks.

    Another job I was on for a woman I knew down the block. She tells me, her husband was nearing retirement and they were discussing all the places they were going to go to. She was the planner for the retirement, gathering tons of info. She found a cheap way to go to the Phillipines, so they took a practice trip there. Towards the end of trip, they were in an outdoor market. Many many vendors, all over. The husband wants to stop at this fortune teller guy's booth. The wife said to him are you nots? You never showed an interest in this kinda stuff before. He told her,  just 10 mins. Gives the guy the money and sit's down. The guy says, I don't want to tell you. Come on you have to tell me. No! back and forth it went. Fortune tell er finally relents. You will be dead in 6 mos. He was a white collar guy and loved golf. Out on the links he has a heart.attack. Dead. It was almost 6 mos , since the trip. I don't know if he had himself checked out by a doctor when he got back. If he didn't that was a big fail. You can do something with a warning. That itch to talk to the fortune teller was his wakeup call.  I made sure I travelled when I was young, I'm glad I did.

    I used to stop at a burito stand that was close to my house. I liked her burritos alot. I'd always converse with her. She had the gift too. Pregnant women would want to know, is it a boy or girl. As far as I know, she didn't miss. She said a doctor  once told her, she may not survive the career. She went home and said oh yes I will and she did. I did a visualisation technique with her. I guided her as she shut her eyes. From the experience she was told that her future time was about 10 yrs. In the experience she told them, I will beat it like before, they said not this time. Her sister asked her why don't you bring up, how I'm going to donate this organ to you if you need it. She did not give her sister the answer. Don't know what happened after that.

    Jeane Dixon was another famous soothsayer. I like her. She had a fairly good track record. She was good about predicting the near future. The far future can change due to man's free will. A lot of her friends and aquaintences would come to her for advice. Those who heeded it were very thankfull. You can do this for yourself by working with spirit directly. You don't need the so called gift.

5/14/2020 Intangible Spirit

    As I said before, it's like electricity. It's behind your walls and in your car, every day you use it, because it makes your life easier. Because it it out of sight, you take it for granted. It does so many jobs for you. Those who got a shock from it, can attest to it's validity, as I have done, not pleasant. Air also, can't see it or taste it, but you know it's there because you can see it's affect on things. Same with spirit, it's an invisible carrier of your wants and dreams. It is the way that God communicates with you. You recognise this when you allow yourself to see how it can affect you. If you want to run your blender you flip the wall switch, or drive your car turn the key. See how spirit works by testing it. Present it with a querry you might have in the morning and look for the answer during your day. Keep a small note pad with you to record anything you think is viable. The answer can come anytime even in a dream. Once you have imprinted spirit with your querry, your answer will be on it's way. How long... only spirit knows.

    Gal I knew had a decision to make on a business decision. Should she go with this guy or forget it. She used 2 symbols, 1 a bird for affirmation and an elephant for a no go. About the third day, she's affixing stamps to letters when she looks at the envelope there's an elephant staring back at her. Then she remembered her yes and no answer for spirit to use. Business decision cancelled. That's total trust.

    One day I needed a quick decision on wheather to go on a long trip or not, time was running out. My symbol was 2 solid blue cars, back to back, would pass by my house. Three minutes later 2 solid blue cars go by, back to back. Left for the trip and so glad I did it! Thanks spirit.

    Spirit can chime in even if you don't have a question. Another gal would notice empty oil bottles around, that went on for 2 weeks. Next time getting gas she has guy check the oil, she was down 2 quarts.

    To me spirit equals best friend 24/7. The goal is to devolp that trust and then there's no telling what your life can become. Definetly, more happiness less fear. Even exuberance. If your reading this,  now is the time. To see for yourself.

5/13/2020. The Little Things

    Or little nudges.  I had this old loose leaf binder I liked, but the rings inside no longer fitted nice together,  with that familiar snap. I tried to manhandle them into fitting together, total failure. Then I get in my head, hit the tops of the rings. I find my hammer, and strike the two half rings that are close together, the rings meet perfectly, then the second rings and third rings. Good as new. Thanks spirit! I didn't ask for help, it just came out of the blue.

    It's February, I'm heading to a class. Coming down a small hill, I gently touch the brakes no grip. Stop sign ahead and its a busy intersection, so I quick steer the truck into a snow bank directly to my right, that worked. Now to dig myself out, with a small shovel I had in bed of pickup. This is going to take awhile. I'm working 5 min, when I say could use a little help here. No sooner than I ask, a guy runs to me can I help? Thank you! The only thing I have to offer him is a dust pan. He takes it and sets to work. Ten minutes later I'm free. Thank you dude and spirit! Got to class on time.

    Before I knew about spirit, spirit used me. Back then to make a call you used a pay phone. For some reason I left my wallet on top of the phone. The phone had a silver rectangular box around it. Half way back to work I realize I left the wallet there, hurry back. Theres a girl there, I saw her before I left the area, the first time. My wallet is where I left it. The gaI is a crying mess. What's wrong, she said she had fight with boyfriend, she had no money and no one to turn to. I said what about her parents? She said they were not an option, what a shame I say. I tell her I will drive you back to your place, fifteen min away. It felt good to be of service.

    Another friend of mine was complaining about her mortgage. I said I'll get you another one at a better rate. Which I did. Six months later, she didn't like that the mortgage company would sell her mortgage to another company. After hanging up on the company because they were rude to her. She said out loud I'm not going to take this. Then words form in her head, get a home equity loan and she did. Worked out perfect. She had beginning alzheimers. She said she would have never thought of it. Spirit helped her out. But it was her saying, I'm not going to take it, that got the ball rolling.

5/10/2020. What Goes Around Comes Around

    I was about to find out what those words really meant .... the hard way!

    Some people call it karma, one word instead of using five words. Karma is not necessarily bad, it can be good also. Here's an example , say your on the road and you cut someone off, deliberate or accidentally, what you did will happen to you, in one form or another. It may happen that day or the next day or next week,next month or even next year. Sometimes on the highway I see people get it back fairly quickly. When I see people trying to merge, I let them in, many many times when I need to merge,I always can due to others civility.  Return to them a wave gesture, it makes them feel good, it dosen't cost anything to be Kind! When you feel that you were wronged, send that person a blessing, wish them future good in their life. It does have an affect.They say by burning(living it) karma you can proceed more quickly along the path of life. Sounded good to me, I'm all in. I used my imagination, I visualized a locamotive and I'm in the driver seat, my hand on the lever, it's way to the left. I'm moving at a nice leisurely pace and all is tranquill, I move that lever midway, now I'm moving at a pretty good clip. Then I get a brilliant idea, let her rip, all the way to the right we go. I just sped up my karma, you big dope, now you did it.

    Two days later, my girlfriend anounces she's moving away. What the! Soon after that my friend, who I was going into business with goes over the deap end. Me and him worked months to secure financing for our project. The check came in the mail 100,000 dollars. We were on our way to making a whole lot of money. Unbenowst to me, he moved into a hotel downtown using his credit cards left and right. He now saw himself as a big time promoter. I visited him in his hotel room, Evan wtf are you doing. He said he had a plan to make way more money.  Earlier, he had given me a book to read, called the Art of the Deal. I read the book that week. I guess he saw himself as Donald Trump. I came to give Evan his book back, he took it and said just you wait and see, were going to meet Trump. I said yeah right. In the mean time, Evan's putting people together and networking, holding brunches at the hotel for his guests. And these people are set to hand over money to him, to get his venture off the ground. People were coming out of the woodwork.  Amazing, Evan was a king maker. He also was in a manic state. Problem was, he was always 4 steps ahead of himself.  He never completed step 1 before moving to 2. If he could have done that, he would have been a millionaire in less than a year. He put so many people together in such a short period of time.

    It's midnight, phone rings it's Evan can you pick me up. Where are you, at a 7/11 (convience store) somewhere. He took rt 10 south. He said it was real dark there. Last thing I wanted to do was go get him. Eh ... what the hell, I'll give it a try.  No cell phones back then. The night is inky alright. I'm heading south and I don't know where to turn right, I said I'll try this exit. Travel 3 miles, just dark trees no street lamps. There's a store up on the left Iit up like a roman candle. Lo and behold it's a 7/11. No way! But theres no Evan. I go inside and say, hey you see a guy wearing a cowboy hat?  Sure did, he was trying to get a limo to pick him up, only limos allowed use of a credit card. The cashier said 5 min after he hung up phone, a huge, huge limo pulls into parking lot. Evan goes over to him and says to him, where you headed? To Atlantic City, I'm Trumps driver. If you want to come, it's free. Evan gets in. Unbelievable! I go home. I didn't find out the Trump part till the next day. Evan says that's how were going to meet Trump, I'm going to say I found the Art of the Deal book in your limo and I personally want to return it to you. In less than a week he was well on his way to meeting Trump. Didn't happen though. Evan was driving that train right toward the brick wall, me the conductor waving to him to slow it down. He was deaf to my beseachments.

    Another phone call from Evan, I'm in jail. What! Yep, can you bail me out, maybe I say. I ask my pop for the money. Pay the bail. Evan developed some enemies back at the hotel. I guess his networking was a little frowned upon by management. They were getting paid though. Evan was nearing his hotel room one day when 2 guys round the corner, there he is, they bull rush him. At the last minute Evan drops real low, those 2 guys go flying. The hotel wanted him out, Evan says No I'm paid up for the week. They call the cops on him. Evan protests as cops drag him off,  I'm paid up, it ain't right! Evan is so livid, he makes his one call to me, then he wants another call, they say no. Evan is not a happy camper, put in jail unjustly. Evan was ranting, the sole cop would tell him to shut up. Evan didn't stop, the cop took his frustration out on Evan namely fisticuffs. I bailed Evan out, he went back to where he was comfortable, an easy chair and a bottle of vodka. Evan a great guy when sober not so much when drunk. I had a buddy rent one of his rooms.

    I bought a 78 Buick Skylark, the guy told me it ran for over 50 miles with no oil. Since that time it didn't run right. I had problems with the car stalling out, it went on like that for a couple days. I got a new gas filter for it bigger than the old one .made of hard plastic. I had to cut the metal gas line to get it in. Job done. I saw metal gas tube on car fender and I turn it upside down and tap the car fender, lifting the tube up, there is a perfect pyramid of rust particles glinting in the sunlight. It was a rust problem. Not any injury from a lack of oil. Took it out on road, ran like a sport car. Very happy. Fun to drive. I was going to make it better so I bought  an oil pump kit, there were 4 colored springs in it. I read directions, it said use the yellow spring for my make and model. Put it together, no oil pressure. Did it 3 times same result. I get it towed to mechanic. Pick it up, got oil pressure back. The mechanic took it apart and did what I did, used the yellow spring, no oil pressure. He tried green one, nope, red one, nope, blue one got oil pressure. Mechanic was smarter than me. Paid the guy 130.00. Took it for test run, to Evan house. Everything ok there, considering. Evan still drinking.  It's dusk, head back home, 8 min from Evan's house a woman is taking too long to make a left into her driveway. There was a big patch of a macadam off to the right, I pass her on the right bam too late for the brake, my head hits the headliner, I'm ok. Ah cannot say that for the car though. So I gave the mechanic 130 dollars around 2 pm and totaled it 9pm. Damn. At the last second I saw the manhole cover, it caught the oil pan and drove it into the transmission case. Not a good night. The paving contractor didn't place a caution sign at the unfinished area around man hole cover. Idiot!

    Next week, I have a dream there is a parade of ugly clowns and one of them is a brother to Larry who I had rented Evans spare bedroom. Had to get to Evans house to see what's what. I get into my last truck, a 66 F100(Ford) pickup. I'm nearing Evan's house, this time I take a pararell street to the one I had an accident on. The road is closed off to the intersection up a head, there's a Japanese Restraunt on my right. I'm going to cut through their off hour parking lot. There's a garbage truck stopped at the approach ramp to the parking lot. It's early morning beautifulI blue fall day. He is parked on an angle, I have to wait on street till he clears the entrance, so I can make my right hand turn into lot. I'm blaring my horn as he hits me head on! I watch my hood crumble like and old tin can. Took out my steering. Truck finished. Two totaled vehicles in 9 days on 2 pararell roads. The garbage truck driver, said it was his first traffic accident, said he didn't see me. It was a sunny day no obstructions. Wham! This was not normal. God had bigger plans. Oh, the dream was right, Larry did have his no good theiving brother staying at the house, kicked him out.

    So in one months time I lost two relationships, had three car accidents, two of which got totaled, no collison insurance on either vehicle. Screwed up one job I was on. I was reeling. I visualized me back in train, hand on throttle putting it back to where it was. Next day things slowed down. It took me three years to recover. So please don't do what I did, let events unfold naturally without putting in your two cents. So much better and happier.

    You may say there's no such thing as karma but as for I and me,   we...... believe.